I’ve been humming the tune of this little chorus I heard at the Desperation conference all morning…
…Romance me, oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs.
Dance with me, oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs…
They threw it into the “How He Loves” song, and it caught me off guard when I heard it a few weeks ago. My initial thoughts were mostly cynical because I could easily guess that half of the students around me had no idea exactly what they were singing so passionately about at that point in the service. And then, I got a little flustered by it because the idea of Christ as our “lover” or “husband” is not the most appealing metaphor for me. I get it. I don’t disagree with it. But I’ve always thought of myself as less than romantic, and the idea that Christ loves us in that way has been an idea that I’ve generally brushed off passively.
There have been a lot of things going on recently that have just driven me back to the Lord in a fresh way. Things outside of my control. Things happening in a way that was neither what I expected or desired. A lot of questions and uncertainty and insecurity and frustration. All kinds of things that have driven me to my knees because I don’t know how else to deal with all of it. Burdens to be poured out in my journal. Questions that I don’t really want an answer to. Problems that don’t seem to have a winning solution.
And when I went to bed last night, thoughts running wild about all of it, I literally fell asleep with my journal laid out across my chest and my Bible tucked into my hand. And I woke up in almost the exact same position this morning.
It’s such a picture of the way He is pressing into me right now. When everything around me is chaos, when nothing seems certain or true or sure, when I am just done trying to figure it all out and done fighting to make everything work, I’m driven back to my Constant and my Keeper in the most intimate and tender ways. He carries the load for me. He sees and hears me. He speaks to my need. He brings rest to my mind. He calms my anxious spirit. And He sweeps me away with His overwhelming love.
He is romancing me in a way that I’ve never known before….to the song of all songs.
