Archive for December, 2007

I found this quote a few weeks ago:

You are so young, you have not even begun, and I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything that is unsolved in your heart and to try to cherish the questions themselves, like closed rooms and like books written in a very strange tongue. Do not search now for the answers which must be given you because you could not live them. It is a matter of living everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then, gradually, without noticing it, one distant day live right into the answer.  -R.M.Rilke-

I love this. It is the perfect description of my thoughts these days. I have so many questions. What will I do for the rest of my life? How will  my dreams and goals play out? What will it look like for the Lord to give me the desires of my heart?

Most days I just get lost in the questions. How will Long Hollow fit in the bigger picture of God’s plans for me? How long should I be here? Should I be looking for the next goal to attain or the next project to take on, or should I stay put until some other opportunity just falls into my life?  Nothing in my life has never been status quo, and I’ve never been able to guess year-to-year where I will be next.  Should I be patient with my questions or proactive in finding the answers?

I miss life as it is when I get lost in my questions…and I don’t want to miss it.  I want to live the questions. I want to cherish all the uncertainty and the opportunity that still lies ahead. I want to look forward with anticipation, but I want to live my questions today.  If I always get lost in the questions, I’ll never live into the answer, and I can’t stand the thought of missing it.

I’m jumping on board the blogging bandwagon. I love journaling and writing, and a blog holds the factor of psuedo-significance…and I like the uncertain significance. It holds a lot of possibility.


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